Not Feeling Very Happy

Just not feeling very happy today. I really wanted this blog to be about the joys of marriage and parenthood. I wanted to capture all the happy times with our family. To show that you can sucessfully have a career and be a great mom too. I see so many blogs where there's a lot of complaining and women who simply can't wait for their kids to grow up and be gone. I was determined that mine would be different.

But, in reality, life just isn't always happy. I've been under a lot of stress lately. I'm worried about our future, I'm not sure I like my job anymore and I'm just not finding my day to day routine very fulfilling. I keep telling myself to focus on the positive, not worry about the things I have no control over and just be at peace with what I have. I feel sad inside. I'm having a hard time sleeping and I feel so tired and overwhelmed. We don't have the money to really do anything. I feel stuck.

Everyone around me is losing their job. Everyday some new company is announcing major lay-offs, including mine and Aaron's. Will we make it through this economic crisis and keep our job? So many people are acting as if Obama is our Savior who is going to fix everything. He is not a miracle worker and in all honesty - things will probably be this way for at least a year or more. I want to just close my eyes and make everything ok again.

I know people read this blog. I would love to hear from you.

T

Happy New Year

My hopes for 2009:

That Aaron and I keep our jobs.
That Grace stays healthy.
That the economy improves.
That Obama changes things.
That we get our troops out of Iraq & Afghanistan.
That my sister finds peace.
That I lose some weight - which means that I'll have to start running again and boy do I love running.... : (
That we focus on God and what he wants for us and not what we want for ourselves.
Good friends.
Time with family.
Peace.
Here we are bringing in the New Year. God Bless us all:

White Christmas

We had a white Christmas - a real one. It was snowing while we were opening presents. It was beautiful and something I will never forget. We probably got a foot of snow. We actually had to chain the minivan up just to get around. It was fun while it lasted. We went sledding and ice skating. We hung out with friends and drank egg nog. We have had an incredible holiday. I hate to see it end.