Just not feeling very happy today. I really wanted this blog to be about the joys of marriage and parenthood. I wanted to capture all the happy times with our family. To show that you can sucessfully have a career and be a great mom too. I see so many blogs where there's a lot of complaining and women who simply can't wait for their kids to grow up and be gone. I was determined that mine would be different.
But, in reality, life just isn't always happy. I've been under a lot of stress lately. I'm worried about our future, I'm not sure I like my job anymore and I'm just not finding my day to day routine very fulfilling. I keep telling myself to focus on the positive, not worry about the things I have no control over and just be at peace with what I have. I feel sad inside. I'm having a hard time sleeping and I feel so tired and overwhelmed. We don't have the money to really do anything. I feel stuck.
Everyone around me is losing their job. Everyday some new company is announcing major lay-offs, including mine and Aaron's. Will we make it through this economic crisis and keep our job? So many people are acting as if Obama is our Savior who is going to fix everything. He is not a miracle worker and in all honesty - things will probably be this way for at least a year or more. I want to just close my eyes and make everything ok again.
I know people read this blog. I would love to hear from you.
T
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That broke my heart. EVEN NOW, as a mom, our greatest desire is to see our children and grandchildren happy. This blog that you have is a great tool for getting thru these "hard" feelings. Scripture always tells us to "remember." Remember those GOOD, GREAT, WONDERFUL times and know that this too will pass. Remember all that God HAS DONE and all the blessings we have. Cling to His promises to always be with you (in tough and great times); that He ALWAY has your best in mind so even when you're feeling down or times are really bad, He is working for your good. I feel funny listing all his promises here, but I would love to send you some.
Tonya, you are so special to ALL of us - a committed and dedicated wife and mother, sister, daughter and friend. One of the thinks I love the most about you is your joy and zest for life. You do so many fun things and teach your kids to see LIFE and SUNSHINE and FUN!!!
Go ahead, be down for a short time. There's a lot of "STUFF" in this world..... But don't let it last. Don't listen to the news, read pessimistic articles, or let yourself get bombarded. Take each day and at the end of the day, ask, "What can I be thankful for today?" There is ALWAYS something.
I love you and appreciate you and hope you will "Feel Happy" soon.
Love Diane
Things I LOVE about my sister...
~Her passion for life.
~That when the kids break out the water guns, she's right in the thick of it.
~Her smile.
~Her children, they are amazing. That comes from great parenting.
~That she wants to be a foster parent.
~Her story telling ability. She can always get you laughing.
~That she loves my children just as if they were her own. She has such a big heart that never fills.
~Her growth in the past few years. She has accomplished much, been through much harder times than this, and still is this bright shinning beacon that I've been clinging to.
~That she loves UFC as much as I do.
~That she has never hung up on me...yet.
You know the phrase "I'd never wish this on any other person, even my worst enemy." Don't let it consume you. Turn your attention to you family. That's what matters the most. Be in the present moment. When we worry we are living in the future, when we feel guilty we are living in the past, missing the precious present moment. I promise I will work toward this myself and find that inner peace.
I LOVE YOU.... Thank you.
Denise
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